May our dreams come true!

Well, my feeling is totally different from my previous blog. Ok, I take back what i wrote last time. Things are different now. I am no more unlucky in love. I am glad that I am here now(I am thinking like this over and over again,uncountable).

I am glad that sensei gave me chance, get scholarship, came to Japan, studying at Aoyama and met him. I have a best bf now. I feel that every second are precious. Even I will only be here for a short time (It is only 10 months), I wanna spent every second meaningfully. I even dun feel like wan to go back (I'm sorry but..), but i have no choice.

Every time when I think about I gonna apart with him after 8 months later. My heart is hurt. I DON'T WANT TO APART WITH HIM! I wonder there is future for us? Or maybe it is just a short sweet dream. However, no one can predict future. If we wanna have our future then we need to work hard for it.

Today finally we talked about this topic. Last time we decided to meet again when we study Master at Japan again. Today, we talked more on this topic. After i go back to UM, I still need to study for another 2 years. Then after I graduate, I want to apply scholarship again on the coming feb. But of course before that we need to work hard to achieve this dream. He has no problem because he is a half japanese. For him, Japan is his second hometown. But I am not the same. But not the same doesn't mean that I have to give up. There is nothing I can do but just try.

^^ He said that even we cannot meet for 2 years after this, but maybe he will come to Malaysia and find me. Haha..even I dunno it is true or not. But I'm happy that he thought like this. He gonna tell his family that he is dating now. ^^ He never dated b4. Wa~i, first love.. hehe..

Our future are still far and maybe it won't exist at all. But i hope that these days will come to me one day.