4 days versus 2 or 3 years

Today is the last day for year 2007. For me, this year is a very important, meaningful and unforgettable year. Start from tomorrow, a new year will come. Hope that next year will be better than this year.

He will go to his relative house to celebrate New Year start from today till 3rd. So that's mean I can't meet him for 4days. His relative still dunno that he has gf now. So, He can't bring me along. But, he hope that his relative will say something like :" Why don't u bring your gf along??"after he told them, so that he can go to his relative house together with me.

Maybe because of I can't meet him for 4days. Yesterday night I dreamed a lot of weird dreams. Like, dreamed that I'm back to Malaysia, dreamed that someone told me that "even I can't remember who are u now, but I think I knew u before.". OMG!! after I heard this I just wake up immediately. Scared me! Then I feel so insecure. I worry that one day, we would become like this. We can't remember each other clearly, or even forget about each other. I don't want these days to come! The feeling that we have for each other are so strong now, I don't want it to disappear one day! Time can change everything. No one will know what will happen tomorrow. So, who can expect what will happen after 2 or 3 years?

But however, no matter what, I will still try my best to meet him again even I'm back to Malaysia. To achieve our promises and our dreams. It is a BIG dream, so It needs a lot of hard work to achieve it. I must try my best! May these days will come one day!

Happy 1st month anniversary~~ ^^

Today is our 1st month anniversary. ^^ *Sob sob* Time pass very fast. It's already a month. Even today is our anniversary but we can't meet each other because he need to work today. *Sob sob* Miss him so much.

However, we celebrated it yesterday. He bought me a box of chocolate as my extra anniversary present. But i didn't prepare anything. I'm very bad,right? But he don't mind ^^. American celebrate their anniversary every year but for the 1st years they celebrate 1st month, 3rd month and half year anniversary.

We went to Namja Town( In Sunshine city, Ikebukuro). Namja Town is a indoor theme park.Hehe.. Dear..i think you'll like this place because Namja Town's mascot is cats and there has haunted house like Hell Hotel and Hell toilet. Of course, I not dare to go inside there even Alex is beside me. I used to went to a haunted house with him once. But I just closed my eyes all the way long inside the haunted house (I AM USELESS!, right?) Beside that, you can see and play a lot of things there. For more information you can check my friendster photos.

Beside that, Namja town is a Chinese meat dumpling paradise and dessert paradise. All of the foods are delicious there. Yummy. I still miss the Chinese meet dumpling there. I think that it's even delicious than Malaysia's. Hehe..of course cakes and ice-cream are delicious too.>< I still want to eat!!!

Haha..thanks to him. I think without him I can't feel that much shiawase now. Hope that our relationship can last forever.^^ (<----OMG, for some reasons I never expected myself will wrote and thought like this. It is just so unlike me. What do you think?)

May our dreams come true!

Well, my feeling is totally different from my previous blog. Ok, I take back what i wrote last time. Things are different now. I am no more unlucky in love. I am glad that I am here now(I am thinking like this over and over again,uncountable).

I am glad that sensei gave me chance, get scholarship, came to Japan, studying at Aoyama and met him. I have a best bf now. I feel that every second are precious. Even I will only be here for a short time (It is only 10 months), I wanna spent every second meaningfully. I even dun feel like wan to go back (I'm sorry but..), but i have no choice.

Every time when I think about I gonna apart with him after 8 months later. My heart is hurt. I DON'T WANT TO APART WITH HIM! I wonder there is future for us? Or maybe it is just a short sweet dream. However, no one can predict future. If we wanna have our future then we need to work hard for it.

Today finally we talked about this topic. Last time we decided to meet again when we study Master at Japan again. Today, we talked more on this topic. After i go back to UM, I still need to study for another 2 years. Then after I graduate, I want to apply scholarship again on the coming feb. But of course before that we need to work hard to achieve this dream. He has no problem because he is a half japanese. For him, Japan is his second hometown. But I am not the same. But not the same doesn't mean that I have to give up. There is nothing I can do but just try.

^^ He said that even we cannot meet for 2 years after this, but maybe he will come to Malaysia and find me. Haha..even I dunno it is true or not. But I'm happy that he thought like this. He gonna tell his family that he is dating now. ^^ He never dated b4. Wa~i, first love.. hehe..

Our future are still far and maybe it won't exist at all. But i hope that these days will come to me one day.