I may be lucky at everything but surely not that

Again! My weakness point. Many peoples said that I'm a lucky person. Usually they will said that I'm just lucky rather than I get it because of my hard works. Sometime I don't really like that. But I'm used to it. So, when they said that I'm lucky, I'm happy. Because it is better than nothing. Not everyone are lucky. But they usually have what i don't have.

Like something regarding to L.O.V.E. I always have no luck at that. It is either don't have suitable person around me or maybe even if i found but I'll know that it is impossible soon. This kind of things keep on going in my life.

Sometime i wonder what is wrong with me. I know I'll have a lot of bad habits and attitude. I know that guys might not like a girl like me. I know that, I know it well that everyone do. Sometime i think of wanna change myself. But wait a minute. If i changed myself then that is not the real me. Even someone fall in love with me, there will be meaningless. Because that is not the real me, that is mean HE is not fall in love with me. I wonder why no one able to c my invisible good points? Whatever, they just dunno how good am I!(oops..i said something over)

Anyway, I'm bored with this!! Sometime even I have a target, I won't put much hope on it. Because no matter what I'll know that it is impossible soon. Like now, I think stay at the stage of good friend(I dunno consider as good friend or not, but at least he tells me secrets) also not a bad thing. Well..love is always not everything for me. Except love there are plenty lot of wonderful things in this world. Ok, maybe because of i don't believe in love so as a punishment, i have no luck on it.

2 Nov 2007

My holiday start from today until next Tues because of my uni festival(Aogaku sai). Hehe..Next Mon and Tues have school trip to hot spring. Hehe..looking forward for it. Hope that can c a lot of nice scenery there.
But today is a boring day too. Didn't went anywhere today. Even feel like wanna go out, but no one accompany me. Sigh..but never mind, tomorrow i'll go to my uni festival with my friends. Hehe. Then after that maybe will go to Jiyuukaoka. I heard they said that there has a lot of cute stuff and delicious cakes. Yeah.. I love cake. Hehe..will go and try it tomorrow.Hehe..
Then Sun, i think i will go to somewhere too. But still not sure where to go. Don't feel like wanna stay at dorm. If too free then i will think of those sad things againl. Sigh..i tot that i finally found it but actually in fact that is something not belong to me. Whatever, let time decide everything. Haha..
May the happy days reach me soon.