Monday, December 31, 2007
4 days versus 2 or 3 years
He will go to his relative house to celebrate New Year start from today till 3rd. So that's mean I can't meet him for 4days. His relative still dunno that he has gf now. So, He can't bring me along. But, he hope that his relative will say something like :" Why don't u bring your gf along??"after he told them, so that he can go to his relative house together with me.
Maybe because of I can't meet him for 4days. Yesterday night I dreamed a lot of weird dreams. Like, dreamed that I'm back to Malaysia, dreamed that someone told me that "even I can't remember who are u now, but I think I knew u before.". OMG!! after I heard this I just wake up immediately. Scared me! Then I feel so insecure. I worry that one day, we would become like this. We can't remember each other clearly, or even forget about each other. I don't want these days to come! The feeling that we have for each other are so strong now, I don't want it to disappear one day! Time can change everything. No one will know what will happen tomorrow. So, who can expect what will happen after 2 or 3 years?
But however, no matter what, I will still try my best to meet him again even I'm back to Malaysia. To achieve our promises and our dreams. It is a BIG dream, so It needs a lot of hard work to achieve it. I must try my best! May these days will come one day!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Happy 1st month anniversary~~ ^^
However, we celebrated it yesterday. He bought me a box of chocolate as my extra anniversary present. But i didn't prepare anything. I'm very bad,right? But he don't mind ^^. American celebrate their anniversary every year but for the 1st years they celebrate 1st month, 3rd month and half year anniversary.
We went to Namja Town( In Sunshine city, Ikebukuro). Namja Town is a indoor theme park.Hehe.. Dear..i think you'll like this place because Namja Town's mascot is cats and there has haunted house like Hell Hotel and Hell toilet. Of course, I not dare to go inside there even Alex is beside me. I used to went to a haunted house with him once. But I just closed my eyes all the way long inside the haunted house (I AM USELESS!, right?) Beside that, you can see and play a lot of things there. For more information you can check my friendster photos.
Beside that, Namja town is a Chinese meat dumpling paradise and dessert paradise. All of the foods are delicious there. Yummy. I still miss the Chinese meet dumpling there. I think that it's even delicious than Malaysia's. Hehe..of course cakes and ice-cream are delicious too.>< I still want to eat!!!
Haha..thanks to him. I think without him I can't feel that much shiawase now. Hope that our relationship can last forever.^^ (<----OMG, for some reasons I never expected myself will wrote and thought like this. It is just so unlike me. What do you think?)
Saturday, December 01, 2007
May our dreams come true!
I am glad that sensei gave me chance, get scholarship, came to Japan, studying at Aoyama and met him. I have a best bf now. I feel that every second are precious. Even I will only be here for a short time (It is only 10 months), I wanna spent every second meaningfully. I even dun feel like wan to go back (I'm sorry but..), but i have no choice.
Every time when I think about I gonna apart with him after 8 months later. My heart is hurt. I DON'T WANT TO APART WITH HIM! I wonder there is future for us? Or maybe it is just a short sweet dream. However, no one can predict future. If we wanna have our future then we need to work hard for it.
Today finally we talked about this topic. Last time we decided to meet again when we study Master at Japan again. Today, we talked more on this topic. After i go back to UM, I still need to study for another 2 years. Then after I graduate, I want to apply scholarship again on the coming feb. But of course before that we need to work hard to achieve this dream. He has no problem because he is a half japanese. For him, Japan is his second hometown. But I am not the same. But not the same doesn't mean that I have to give up. There is nothing I can do but just try.
^^ He said that even we cannot meet for 2 years after this, but maybe he will come to Malaysia and find me. Haha..even I dunno it is true or not. But I'm happy that he thought like this. He gonna tell his family that he is dating now. ^^ He never dated b4. Wa~i, first love.. hehe..
Our future are still far and maybe it won't exist at all. But i hope that these days will come to me one day.
Sunday, November 04, 2007
I may be lucky at everything but surely not that
Like something regarding to L.O.V.E. I always have no luck at that. It is either don't have suitable person around me or maybe even if i found but I'll know that it is impossible soon. This kind of things keep on going in my life.
Sometime i wonder what is wrong with me. I know I'll have a lot of bad habits and attitude. I know that guys might not like a girl like me. I know that, I know it well that everyone do. Sometime i think of wanna change myself. But wait a minute. If i changed myself then that is not the real me. Even someone fall in love with me, there will be meaningless. Because that is not the real me, that is mean HE is not fall in love with me. I wonder why no one able to c my invisible good points? Whatever, they just dunno how good am I!(oops..i said something over)
Anyway, I'm bored with this!! Sometime even I have a target, I won't put much hope on it. Because no matter what I'll know that it is impossible soon. Like now, I think stay at the stage of good friend(I dunno consider as good friend or not, but at least he tells me secrets) also not a bad thing. Well..love is always not everything for me. Except love there are plenty lot of wonderful things in this world. Ok, maybe because of i don't believe in love so as a punishment, i have no luck on it.
Friday, November 02, 2007
2 Nov 2007
But today is a boring day too. Didn't went anywhere today. Even feel like wanna go out, but no one accompany me. Sigh..but never mind, tomorrow i'll go to my uni festival with my friends. Hehe. Then after that maybe will go to Jiyuukaoka. I heard they said that there has a lot of cute stuff and delicious cakes. Yeah.. I love cake. Hehe..will go and try it tomorrow.Hehe..
Then Sun, i think i will go to somewhere too. But still not sure where to go. Don't feel like wanna stay at dorm. If too free then i will think of those sad things againl. Sigh..i tot that i finally found it but actually in fact that is something not belong to me. Whatever, let time decide everything. Haha..
May the happy days reach me soon.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
14 Oct 2007
Haha..i'm so happy. I got a Good Future "qian", haha..dunno what is it in eng. Hehe..the meaning is nearly same with what i got from Meiji Shrine last time. Encourage me to do what i want to do. Haha..can i really do what i want to do? But anyway, i'm doing what i want to do. Haha..like try to join w-inds. fan club? Haha..i'm still waiting for the letter.
Haha..i took around 200+ photos today. a lots. Haha..i just keep on take what i think was nice then ended up have 200+. Hehe..i'm glad that i bought digital camera. It's very useful. Hehe..
I saw peoples riding rickshaw today. Wow..i want to ride but no one accompany me to ride. Sigh..next time must find someone who want to ride to go with me. Hehe..it should be fun. Today is cold. Haha..and i didn't wear enough clothes. Haha..and i want to ride tokyo bay cruise. It cost around 1000yen++ from Asakusa to Odaiba. Hehe..will try it next time. Today finally saw Sumidagawa that i always read from text books. Haha..it is big. I never thought that it is that big. Haha..peoples usually will see fireworks there during summer. Hehe..can imagine. It should be nice. Asakusa surely is one of the nice places of Japan. Next time when u all come to Japan must go there. You will enjoy even just with window shopping. Hehe..
Yaa..i'm so happy today.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
w-inds.
Haha..i started to love w-inds. since i was 15 years old. Haha..i love them immediately since they debut. Their songs are very nice, Keita's voice was very special that time and they are good at dance. Haha..of course as their fan, i almost have all of their singles, DVDs, photo books and all of their albums. But recently their songs are not as nice as last time so i seldom listen to their songs and i didn't like them as much as i like them last time. However, with these photo books, its remind me about them.
If u know me well then u will know that my favorite member of w-inds. is Tachibana Keita. Haha...He was so cute. Last time he was skinny and not so tall. But now..look at his muscle, he is strong and a little too tall i think. Haha..Keita really changed a lot since debut. At 1st he was not handsome. Then slowly become handsome and handsome. For me, Keita most handsome period was when he was around 16,17 years old. When they released their 5th single "Another Days". That time was ichiban handsome and cute.
Haha..omg..I like him for 6 years d. Wow...what a long time. Hehe..i remember that one of my dreams is to see their live. Haha..and now i'm in Japan. But too bad, now is autumn, their live for this year was ended. But nvm, wait till next year. Hoho..I hope that they will release nice songs soon. I miss their nice songs. I think what Teo said was right. Join their fans club even just for a year. So, i decided to join their fans club. Yeah..so i can buy their concert ticket before sold out. Now they are very popular so i don't think that i can buy their concert ticket if i'm not their fans club member. So today I've send a letter to their company. So now just need to wait till they reply me. Actually their company is near to my uni. Haha..but i just dunno where is it (lazy to walk there and see). Haha..em..so hopefully next year can watch their live. Yeah..i'm getting excited. Hehe..
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
10 Oct 2007
Haha..today is quite cold. But i like it. Not too cold. Haha..i think i'm one of those silly girls that will wear mini skirt during cold weather. I wore mini skirt today. Haha..but nvm. I have boot. So still ok.
Today went back to dormitory alone. Because everyone seem to busy with their own works, so no one can accompany me. But nvm, i'm used to it. Haha..but somehow still feel a little lonely. This weekend no one free to accompany me to go somewhere. Haha..but nvm, i feel like wanna go somewhere alone. Maybe go to Asakusa?? Because i really wanted to go and walk there. But feel like wanna go Odaiba. I miss the beautiful sea there. I love sea (even i don't know how to swim). Haha..
Haha..when talk about Odaiba, then i will started to think of him. However, he was the one who introduced me such a nice place. Haha..i think i won't keep contact with him d. Because he also didn't contact me. What can i do? I did what i should do. So forget about it. It is hopeless.
Haha..but seriously. I really wanna go out this weekend. If i keep on stay at dormitory, i think i will crazy.
Haha. Japan is really good. I'm glad that i'm here. Haha..i have a lot of things want to do. hehehe..but some cannot. Like, kareshi wo mitsukeru?? It is just impossible. I don't have any aite. No matter how many times i will still say the same thing, arienai, kareshi ga hoshikute, hoshikute..kedo, yappari arienai!!
Haha..i'm quite agree with Teo, okane ga ichiban daiji ne. watashi mo okane ga DAIsuki!!
Then, have something that make me quite happy. Haha..so far have 3 peoples tot that i'm korean. Haha..after i introduced myself or before i introduce myself, they said "u are not from korea??" or "u r korean, right?". Haha..maybe because of my single eyelid? hehe..
Saturday, October 06, 2007
6 Oct 2007
Then, another thing...I..I..I bought something useless again. I wasted money again. I know i shouldn't do this..But..i can't control myself. It is just TOO nice. I bought a watch and a bracelet from SWATCH. Aaaaa!!! It was expensive. But just too nice..so..I did it again! Dear, don't scold me if u read this,k?? I'm sorry.


So after i bought things from SWATCH then i went back to Eda. At 1st i was blur, so i msged Nayong and ask her where she want to have dinner tonight. So she said she wan to go and buy something 1st. So i accompany her to buy (but ended up, i also bought). Haha..But today is sat, and my dorm provide foods, so we didn't eat outside at the end.
There is a handcraft shop in the Supermarket so we went there too. Nayong is really a sugoi person, independent, smart, talented and guess what?? She know how to weave scarf. Omg..i always wanted to learn how to weave a scarf and now finally i found someone that know how to weave to teach me. Yeah~~ Now my another target is weave a scarf. Haha..i wonder i can weave a nice scarf or not. Then, guess what? I bought a pan. But don't forget that i don't know how to cook. Haha...But nvm. I will learn. So i will start from fry an egg tomorrow. I wonder i can do it or not.
Tomorrow i have 2 plans. Plan A and plan B. Plan A is go to Asakusa. Plan B is go to Aoyama Campus at Sagamihara. I will only choose one tomorrow. Nayong is not feeling well so she can only let me know will she going to Asakusa or not tomorrow. If she cannot go then I will go to Sagamihara Campus with the others tomorrow. But before that, i have to do some of my homeworks 1st. AaaH..reports!!! How to write???
Sunday, September 23, 2007
22 Sept 2007
hehe..so i took train and met her at Hachiko, took train to Shinbashi and changed monorail to Odaiba.
OMG..minna.. Odaiba is a very very very very very nice place. Haha..At least Hiro didn't lie to me about this. It is really nice. Haha..it is near to sea.....I love sea very much and there is cold. Haha..not like Shibuya and my dormitory, so hot (luckily have air-cond). Haha..Aqua City. Haha..the night view is ichiban kirei!! I just feel like it is really good that i can go there.^^ Haha..while i'm at Odaiba, i received msg from Anri, she said she can't come, because at 1st she wanna invite her bro too, but her bro is not free so she also not free. Haha..nvm la. Odaiba so nice, i think i sure will go there again *shiawase*. Houses at Odaiba is so nice, i think it is very expensive too. So that is mean Hiro and Anri are rich??Whatever, non of my business.
Haha..then have a lot of couples went there dating. Haha..but seriously, it is a very nice place for dating. Has sea and beautiful night view.
Fuji Terebi also at Odaiba. So, of course went there and c. Hhaa..saw a lot of cute stuffs and some on air program( from the top) and took a lot of pictures too. Haha..
Haha..then after that i saw a very nice ferris wheel from far. So we decided to go there. Haha..It is at Aomi. Hehe..we went there just because wanna ride the ferris wheel. Even there has shopping center but we don't feel like wan to shop at all. So each of us paid 900yen for the ferris wheel fees. We choose the transparent one, so waited quite long. Hehe..Nayong was very scared while in the ferris wheel. Keep on tell me that she is scared and ask me don't move. Because if move too much then will shake. Haha..at 1st i have a little scared(or maybe nervous), but the night view is too nice and i think i like high place (even it is quite scary), so i completely forgot about the scare feeling. haha..then we took monorail to the last station and back to Shinbashi again. Haha..
But that time was 9.30pm. My dormitory curfew is on 11pm. So we are very rush, because need to change from densha(train) to another densha then only can reach my dormitory. So we ran, haha..ran and ran with my high heel. But luckily i'm used to it so it is ok for me (even my leg is a little pain now). So i reached my room on 10.59pm. Haha..phew..it is just nice.
It is a tired but wonderful day. Haha..i think that i'm so shiawase that i can be at Japan. It is a very nice place. ^^ I want to come here again even if i back to Malaysia.
Friday, September 21, 2007
21 Sept 2007
Hehe..my appointment was on 12pm but i be there on 10.30am. Haha..quite early,right? So, i went to a coffee shop and had a cup of cocoa. I was playing my electronic dictionary while waiting for the time. Hehe..then, i also send mails with Jac Cis-senpai. Luckily have she to chat with me. ^^
Then i went to the office at around 11.30am. Hehe, there are 4 foreign students went to HNF today(I'm one of them). We have Sushi as our lunch. Woow..delicious. Haha..especially the fish eggs, ok, i know i'm bad, but i love fish and shrimp eggs.
Then after lunch we sit down and chat with those staffs, talk and write about ourselves, take photos and so on. Haha..they are very nice. So, i think should be no problem. Hehe..I'll meet with them again half year later.
While i was in the train, i received mail from Nayong(a korean exchange student which same dormitory and university as me), she said that she was bored and need to chat with someone so she mailed me. Haha..but that time she is at Shinbashi. Haha..she should invite me together. Then when i reached my dormitory she said that she might go to Odaiba later. Haha..that time i really feel like wanna fly to Odaiba and meet her there. But she said it will take some time so why don't we go to Odaiba tomorrow( was about 6pm that time). Haha..so we decided to go Odaiba together tomorrow. Yeah..they said that Odaiba is very nice. Especially at night, so after i take the photos then show to u all,k? haha..so happy.
Haha..later after decided the time i think i will send mails to Hiro and Anri. Hiro said that if go to Odaiba then must let him know. I wonder if both of them free or not? Because it is sat.
Now i'm waiting for Nayong to have dinner together. She is still not back yet. So hungry. Sobsob..
Yohoo..after dinner. Waaa..today dinner also very delicious. Hehe..I didn't like meat but when i'm here, i eat everything that my dormitory provide. Because it is delicious. Yummy. Haha..i think if keep on like this i will gain weight. Haha..
Just asked Hiro just now. Too bad, he is not free. Now still waiting for Anri's reply. Haha..nvm la. If they cannot go then just Nayong and me. If have nice scenery then it is ok if just two of us go there only. Haha..waa..looking forward about it~~
Thursday, September 20, 2007
20 Sept 2007
Yesterday i went to Meiji Jinguu (Meiji Shrine), hehe..it is very nice there. But it is summer now so cannot c sakura or maple. It is quite hot here everyday, like Malaysia. But i sweat more here compare when i was at Malaysia. Because now need to take train and walk. But nvm, gonna be autumn soon. That time i think i will keep on complain that it is cold.
Saw a lot of things that i watched from TV, haha..now no need to watch from tv. Watch it by myself, touch it and feel it. Yeah..haha..i paid 100yen to get a piece of paper (test about your luck). But it is japanese so don't really understand. But it is something about pls do as what i like and don't hold back, then i should forgive something that i need to forgive?? haha..dunno what is that.
Then i spent 1600yen and bought 2 charms. Haha..1 of course is study charm, but another...i usually won't buy that, but i wonder why i bought that, a love charm. What i expected?? bring me love?? No time for that and not dare to go for that.
Haha..took a lot of photos at Meiji Shrine and went to saw a lot of souvenirs. But too bad, no money to buy because all also so expensive. Have to save money and go travel around. So cannot buy too much stuffs. And my japan phone only have infrared so cannot transfer to my com. too bad. Sigh..can't show u all. I can only transfer it to com when i'm back to Malaysia.
Today didn't went any place. Whole day also stay at dormitory. Haha..did a lot of things that i need to do. But it is like i can't finish it forever. When once is done then i have another thing to do. Tomorrow also need to go to Heiwa Nakajima Foundation alone. I wonder i can find the place or not?? Haha..may god bless me.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
12 Sept 2007
I reached Narita airport on
My dorm environment is not bad. Quite nice just that have a lot of rules. Those Japanese are nice too. But I wonder can I get along with those foreign students?? Haha..dunno. Time will tell. Then maybe because of the “livita”, I can’t sleep even I’m very tired (It is
Then the stupid maxis!!!Quite angry about it. Charge me so much. RM2/msg and RM4.50/min. Aaaaaa…. Nvm. I’ll online soon!!!
When I reached
11 Sept 2007
Today is a very important day. My dream that I wanted finally came true. Today is the 1st time I’ve achieved such big goal and it’s my 1st time I sit for airplane. Never thought that this day will come so fast. I mean 11 Sept? I thought still have a week time to 11 Sept? Actually not well prepared. Everything was so rush.
At 1st my lovely mom said that she won’t cry when send me to the airport. But when I wanna pass through the boarding gate, she hugged me and cried. At 1st I don’t feel like wanna cry but at the end affected by her. Miss her a lot. But luckily someone created webcam. Now my biggest wish is online as soon as possible and chat with her. I’ve a lot of things need to share with her. Miss her so much. Hope she will take care herself.
Ok, actually airplane was not as scary as what I’ve heard. I mean it is ok for me. I won’t feel scared when I’m inside the airplane. At 1st, the plane just will round slowly around the airport for a while (can’t remember how long, 10 min?). Then, before fly up to the sky it will speed up suddenly. Even I sat window seat but can’t really c anything because of too dark. I can’t sleep on board. Not comfortable and the engines was so noisy. This was the 1st time I didn’t sleep whole night. Then I feel like wanna vomit 10min before reach